I wonder if God ever gets frustrated with me. When He tries, over and over, to teach me the same lesson...and time and time again I don't get it. How many times does He have to prove Himself to me before I truly surrender and trust Him with every aspect of my life? Even the little things? I think I trust Him with the big things...well, let me think about that for a moment. No, if I am being truly honest I struggle with those too. Big things like will all of our children grow up and follow the Lord? Will they fulfill His purpose for thier lives? Will I??
I can't honestly say that I always spend time in prayer about decisions before I make them. I think sometimes I base decisions on wanting a change. I get restless, and I think I sometimes interprete my restlessness as God moving me to something new. Maybe that's true, and maybe it's not, but either way I am where I am and God has something to teach me. It's that trust thing again, and something about being content in all circumstances....things He continually works at teaching me. Will I EVER really get it??
"I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances." Philippians 4:11
"Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving." Colossians 3:23-24