Oh my...God is doing things. BIG things! I can't really share details right now, but I am definitely on the cusp of something grand. I can see it on the horizon, and what I think I see is all at once exciting and terrifying. I may have mentioned this before...I hate change. I don't necessarily hate the results of change, but it's the process that really freaks me out. I like things to be predictable and comfortable. I like to be able to see the way things are going, where I am going, and see each step that it will take to get there.
But that's quite often not how life plays out, and I think God does it that way on purpose. Prolly has something to do with trusting in Him and all that nonsense. It really is nonsense, you know, to trust in God. In the natural world, it's nothing short of insanity.
"You want me to build a what? A boat? In the middle of the desert?"
"You want me to lead a million people across the desert...but You aren't going to tell me where we are going, or how long it will take to get to this place we don't even know really exists?"
It doesn't make one bit of sense to trust in Someone we can't see, to relenquish control of our future and our decisions to a God who does not give us guarantees. At least not the kind that I seek. I want to know before I partake in something that it is going to work, that everyone will be happy with the results, and that it won't hurt too much or take me too far outside of my comfort zone to accomplish it. But God doesn't so much work that way. He rarely operates within our comfort zones (I so hate that!) His greatest works are accomplished at the edge of the cliff. That very moment when we finally surrender...let our toes curl over the edge of that cliff and take that leap of faith into the unknown. I think that's when God takes a deep breath, throws His arms up in the air and says "YES!!! She jumped!!! Now....I can work."
Here I am at the edge of the cliff. Realizing that in all it's craziness, it's exactly where God wants me to be...trusting in Him when in the world's eyes, that looks ridiculous.
I am totally nuts...and I'm getting ready to jump!
"For the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength".
1 Corinthians 1:25
Let Mercy Lead - Rich Mullins
Let mercy lead
Let love be the strength in your legs
And in every footprint that you leave
There'll be a drop of grace
If we can reach
Beyond the wisdom of this age
Into the foolishness of God
That foolishness will save
Those who believe
Although their foolish hearts may break
They will find peace
And I'll meet you in that place
Where mercy leads...